thoughts!.....

mirrorCRAX is there any light at the end of this dark winding tunnel is there any hope of getting there is there any hope of knowing where (there) is? please tell me.... if there's any hope whatsoever please tell me.... if i'll ever comeout of the dark if i'll ever taste the sweet flavor of success if i'll ever walk down the road of self satisfaction tell me if it'll ever happen... or at least tell me it shall be ok ... tell me anything ... other than its another day ... in this forsaken place! ------------------------------------------------------ never thought i'd miss you but here i go again losing myself .... ask'n where and when got lost in a feeling ...dunno where to begin where do i go from here why have all the paths disappeared faces look the same and time has lost its name oh how i long for the moments of victory the moments i shared with you now there's a gust of wind pickin up the scraps along the road now there's an angry dog blockin my way now there's a word of blame another player in the game .... another card that reads misfortune why the hell is the sky smilin? this ain't time.... someone pull down the curtains he may as well pull it on ma mind the show is over before it began 'n al the promised acts ...all the promised tears.... all the promised laughs are nothing but history now keep'em in your mind don't ever let'em out ....no doubt you can't even think aloud you're not fuckin allowed guess your friend is back now ..... keep'n you company so you'd never think of coming out you want something to relate to .... relate to that? recognize that? the old cell.... the old maze ..... the old self torture devices in your brain maybe you could relate now .... guess you're still the same... -------------------------------- Jamal Why can’t you say the word The hurtful word goodbye How long can I linger How much longer will I cry Have I played the fool Been a fool long enough Yes, I do know this, Yet good-byes are really rough A word I do not like I would rather say g’day Waiting, patiently, lingering Still on my mind you prey I know it will be hard Good-byes are what I fear Still open without closures I dry up another tear One day it will come Maybe soon that fateful day I still think its difficult Good-bye's so hard to say mirrorCRAX the teacher lined us up in class 'n asked us what we wanna be i picked up the clown 'n u picked the audience 'n as the class burst out in laughter 'n i burst out in tears i knew i'd be the joker through out the years tears of the clown once they bring him down they bring him up again to try again 'n again all eyes turn to watch the fool guess life's like the same 'ol school once u learn a lesson ,...... you learn it again 'n again as the wheel keeps spinnin 'n life keeps rollin till the end mirrorCRAX we're clouds in the sky feathers in the wind with crystal dreams that fly 'n knives that cut within we're masters of the universe .....yet lost within ourselves we maynot own everything.......... but never nothin else never nothin else tryin to figure out this life in such amusin ways 'n the sea gets filled with tears... that crash along the bay .... know the truth that lingers on within our eyes sometimes feels so pretty like a rainbow in the sky the color you've always loved .... but never ever tried mirrorCRAX The waltz of colors floating in calm certain waves Having my own portrait painted everyday Seeing myself self differently from every angle in every way There’s no sky above me , no earth beneath me I’m in the comfortable confinement of those cement walls The water falls.......... ......................... slipping down the sink in a jerky nervous manner like some goons glad to have finally escaped the slammer let ma head fall across their way ‘n watched my hair as it dripped off the remains only to come out from one hole to another Another day begins in that tight ceramic cell Am i a different me today ....... will i ever change I wonder if it’s another typical day I better get ready now...... it’s a long way My head weighs me down ...... But i know i’m ok Another cup of coffee..... a cigarette ‘n an ashtray A weary body unconsciously swaying to the sound of the ceiling fan Like it whispered the dance out to my body ...’n asked if it can Light throws its clearance upon a square in front of me Nothing specifically highlighted ...didn’t expect that anyway My body doesn’t care for relocating.... its happy where it stays Dragged my legs through the hallway.... and they dragged me Jamal Away in the darkness No one about Alone I sit, pondering wonder- My life’s mistaken For perfect and kind How misleading my disguise Step into my mind plunge into my soul See how my perfect isn’t perfect or kind It's shattered and torn Weary and worn Words try to express what’s hiding inside The evil, the hurt, the pain, and the cries But no one sees this poets plea Meaningless, my words then flee- No one to see, not even me Alone I sit, alone to ponder Away in the darkness No one to wonder